Back in May, when I was having awful back problems, I didn't realize that I would be off work for six weeks. I used up my vacation time in the first week, and remainder in the second week. I thought I would be able to be back after 2 weeks at the most, then found out that my company has a "policy" that says "NO RESTRICTIONS" after surgery, to get back to work. This was especially frustrating to me because a new software program was being implemented, and I really needed to be at work, however, with the policy, I was not able to go back, and my temp help was being made to get into the new software, and inputting data, when she wasn't even supposed to be in that system.
Needless to say we are behind on some bills, but have been able to keep up on groceries and gas for our vehicles. I have received monetary help from family, for which I'm so very greatful. We're also putting braces on my oldest, which is not covered by my dental insurance from Blue Cross Blue Shield. GO Figure. Being at home all the time has really put a strain on me mentally. I'm not used to feeling trapped in the house, not being able to do much, because of restrictions I have from my Doctor. Emotionally I have been on a roller coaster. I have been from one extreme to another in a few days...suicidal one day, and ok the next. I'm completely unsure where all this angst is coming from, except that I do have a nearly 5 year old, and a teenager, so I do have an excuse! I almost wish that I had signed up for summer classes, because then I could have at least had something to focus on besides the house mess, and my kids fighting when their dad is at work. Also, fortunately, he has had more work, taking some responsibility off of me as the full time worker. I have to start looking for another job in case things start going even more awry when I get back. I'm not expecting anything less than chaos and impatience from home office as I struggle to get caught back up, even if my supervisor says she will be there to "help". Wish me luck!
On another note, my youngest will turn 5 tomorrow, and is so very excited about her birthday! She gets it this year, and it's fun to hear her talking about her birthday, and wanting her cake, and presents. Hopefully the park will be a decent place to have the party, and that her little friends won't get sunburned. The high temperature tomorrow is supposed to be 102 I believe. Yuck. Even though we finally got some rain a few days ago, I doubt that any more is coming for a while.
I have watched quite a few movies, and one of my favorites has been SuckerPunch, and Letters to Juliet. I of course love watching Dr Who, new episodes, and caught up on some of the ones I missed from the last 2 Doctors. I also found out that River Song IS the daughter of Amy and Rory!!! I knew it! :)
We're also playing Wii a bit, and getting a little exercise that way. I haven't walked as much as I should, but I have been sleeping in later and haven't been up early to walk. Hopefully I can start using my gym membership that I've been paying for since January, and haven't used.
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