Scout

I started a new tradition today. My grandbaby Scout is 3 years old today! He is soing great at Potty training and rides a baby ATV like a boss! Since he is my first grandchild I thought I could call him and sing Happy Birthday like my relatives used to do when we were growing up. I was anxious about feeling stupid as I sang because I want him to remember my voice as sweet soft and loving. I was put on speaker phone and that always freaks me out. I hope I dont sound stupid. What if my voice cracks. I am a professional singer. I studied music in college and played the piano, the oboe, and I also sang in the Opera. But I have stage fright when it comes down to singing to my grandson. I want so badly to be the kind of grandma that I had as a child. I feel so much pressure to be a treasured grandmother because mine were such amazing women. I want to be able to provide more for him to hopefully make up for what I was unable to do for his momma when they were growing up. I dont know if that is a common thing to feel or if I am just really hypersensitive about being a people pleaser because I didnt get it right the first time and I am desperate for her to live vicariously through him. Not in an unhealthy way but to show her what I saw in my grandmother and hope I become as treasured and loved my family as my Nonnie is to me. Happy Birthday to my darling boy Scout!!! The big 3!!!