I lost her. The one person I thought I connected with better than anyone on this whole planet. She was wishy washy, and couldn't decide what she wanted. She was beautiful, kind, talented and sweet. The best thing about her was the way she made me feel. Wanted, loved, talented, needed. As a friend, and in many other ways. It is depressing when a friendship ends. Whats even worse is when you think that there is no way you will ever find another friend like that person. I don't know if I can or not. I don't think that I know how to treat friends or I would have alot more of them. I have family, and they put up with me most of the time. My daughters love me unconditionally, and so does my dog. My husband, well I'm not sure if he really loves me like he used to anymore. I just have to keep pluggin along. Life is not over, just a chapter of it. Goodbye emotional turmoil, hopefully. I just have to say I'm really depressed and feel very lonely where I am right now. Even though people are all around me, I feel like I'm in a well, calling for help and all people do is just stand there and look, while I cry for assistance. It's a soul killing feeling. I hope that I can get out soon, maybe someone will try to bury me and I can step up on the dirt as it comes into the whole and prove everyone wrong. Who knows. I know my Mom has faith in me, and that helps quite a bit. My daughters do too. That is all I need right now.