I've never been so turned on in my life. Well maybe a little bit, but To know someone wants you so bad they will drive to see you, and spend time with you means a LOT when you are feeling pretty low and not worth a damn. I love my kids and I love myself enough to know that things can be better, and should be better, because life shouldn't suck. It shouldn't be crap every single day. It should glow with mystery and energy, and show you something new every day, and love should be the same. Love is a many splendored thing not a chain that holds you down because it doesn't want to let you go. I can't begin to say what kind of life I think I will have in 10 years but I hope that it's one that's filled with joy and peace and security. I want that for my kids and for myself. I want that for my future grandchildren, and the ones after that. Fireworks on the fourth of July in the back yard or whatever, with the grill going and someone rubbing my back and telling me I'm beautiful even though I'm 48 years old, and probably have a few more gray hairs. That will be nice. Someone who is willing to do anything for me, and by anything I mean ANYTHING, and love and worship the ground I walk on, not just say it to get some cheap sex or pictures. I have had it with people who don't mean what they say. I have had it with cheap thrills and meaningless relationships. I want to build a future, not build a wall. I want things to change, and I want it now...or at least pretty soon. December 12, 2014. The day I decided to change my life (yes again)

CHEERS!!!