Difficult

I had no idea how hard it was going to be to do a blog. I want to. I really do. I find myself wondering if I really want to post my life stories where anyone can read them. I guess I should just do it, and not worry about it. I don't know. It's not as if I'm giving out my ssi number or anything.

I do have something neat to report. I got a scooter for an early mothers' day present from my husband!! Something I've been wanting, since I'm too chicken to ride a motorcycle, and something that will save on Gas, IMMENSELY when we move back to Amarillo. Right now I am filling up at least once a week, and it costs between $40 and $45 to fill up my New York Chrysler...93 yr model. It gets decent gas mileage, but not when you're driving 45 miles every day, 10-15 to Canyon, to drop Brittany off at school, and then another 15-20 to work in Amarillo. and THEN coming back home an additional 15 M. Yea...so, looking forward to moving into town, closer to work, hopefully.

I do have some good news to report though. For the last month, I have been taking a supplimental hormone, Cytomel, to help boost the seratonin that my anti depressant is supposed to be providing. While I can't tell a big difference in my energy level, I have been losing weight! I have lost at least 15 lbs since last month. I have been drinking more water, and less Cokes, and have been trying to eat less when I'm depressed or bored. My psychiatrist isn't the most compassionate person. ( at all ) but I believe that this has helped at least my metabolism! So I will keep taking it! I am still stressed out about some aspects in my life, and I am not "Happy" as much as I would like to be, but, I have to Choose to be Happy, instead of sad about my situation, and know that "this too shall pass". Having that kind of attitude will get me a lot farther, than thinking that if I could just Get Out, and RUN...I'd be ok. Running is the least likely to help with anything right now.

So that is my blog for the day..unless I feel like writing more later that is.